W16 PartB Reading Notes Golden State

Reading notes are from “Golden State” by Frank Bidart

• Pink velvet and rosary around his hands... rouged... he was prepared for an open casket funeral.
• He looks like he did when they were married, that’s a bit depressing. 
• Wow, the last gf is kinda outdated, but the drinking issue is understated. 
• Unhappy wiTh money, typical. 
• A life insurance payout? Was the booze hurting their finances?
• Bakersfield, the armpit of California. 
• A good analysis? Mental health issues?
• Did the wife have no attraction to her husband? 
• Marriage would be better if it weren’t mixed up with sex... that’s a strong statement. 
• Divorced... and begging for the mom back, definitely the best thing he ever had, but could t keep
• Jung is a famous psychologist. Interesting to read a single one though and take it to heart. 
• The husband is incredibly needy, explains why they’re richer after death. 
• Has a bit of a jealous streak too. 
• A wish of insight... simple but deep.
• A year before he married another girl... so attached to her.
• The letter is a reply after his death... some sort of therapy I guess.
• So long since she’s written a letter...
• Girl, your psychiatrist doesn’t like you, he’s paid to act like that.
• Turning to prayer when times are hard, unsurprising.
• Wow, life is over if you married Shirley, she was too young, a gold digger...
• Shame shame, not taking your meds as a diabetic, that’s how you die.
• Poor Ruth, returning to him almost dead.
• Must unlearn is strong but true, you have to unlearn a lot after a bad relationship. 
• 10k is a lot of money in 1963... that’s a lot of cattle to buy 
• And she wanted more school, but it was wasted on booze... sad. 
• You can trust an alcoholic, they’ll lie just to get their next drink. 
• Staring at the photographs and reliving the good times, depressing.
• They had an awfully sad relationship. Almost star crossed lovers.